Hour of Honesty 10/25/2021

Hi everyone, I hope all is well and you've had an eventful week:) Apologies in advance this is a long email.

 This week I have decided that the first thing I need to do when I am back in the US is join my aunt Angi and aunt Jana in sewing, I tore a dress and attempted sewing it and well... its not pretty hahaha
So if you couldn't tell by the title of this email, I have a confession. Last week I sent my email talking about all the good things but I also sent a seperate email to my family desperately asking for extra prayers. Some of you are aware of my mental health issues but most of you don't. 
At a young age I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression and about a year ago I was diagnosed with PTSD. I was seeing a therapist up until I started the mtc and I just hoped that these mental illnesses would disappear once the mission started. To my surprise that didn't happen. Last week I had a "mental breakdown" crying to my parents, crying to my companion, crying to my mission president and his wife... I was so mad at myself for letting my thoughts get in the way of a good thing but it's important to remember that there are still hardships in good things because good things turn into growth, and there is no comfort in growth. 
I'm not sharing this to receive pity by any means, I am sharing this because I know that there is someone dealing with similar hardships. I was trying to do it all on my own and forgot the most important thing. To turn to my Savior. As I have prayed for strength and done the necessary things to help me grow, I have seen growth. I relearned a lesson this week. Rely on the Lord in all aspects of your life. He is the ONLY person who knows exactly how you feel and the only person who can take that pain from you. A quote that has been on my mind this week is "if you want to go fast, go alone. if you want to go far, go together" and I know as I walk along side my Savior, he will carry me. And I know he will do the same for each of you. He loves you and wants to help us in our hardships so LET HIM! 
I think that's all for the deep stuff lol... this week went by so fast again. We have had such a busy schedule lately, lots of lessons lots of street finding, it's been good and miracles are happening. Thursday we literally drove in London! (We have to do 3 hours of driving before we can do the test for a UK liscense) Driving here made me realize how American I really am. It was really cool to drive around London and see the city though! We usually walk or travel by the tube so being able to see the city was so fun. I can't remember what we did Friday but Saturday we had exchanges and I spent the day in St. Albans which is like 45 minutes from my flat. Twas a good day. 
Every Saturday night the mission watches The Chosen together (can't remember if I already told you that). I love it so much, it makes me feel like I have a family again hahah. There was a scene that I loved where Jesus says "I have everything yhat I need, but I wanted you"
That was so powerful to me, because I know that's exactly how our Savior feels about each of us. Being a missionary its really easy to feel like you will never measure up but know that the Lord wants me to be a missionary right in this moment is very comforting. Yesterday was fun, we had a stake activity for the YA and meant some great people. 
You know those stories you don't tell you parents until your home? Well I have one if those now... sorry mom & dad lol
Overall I am so happy, but I do hit bumps in the road and that's okay. When you hit bumps or if you are at a bump right now, ask Jesus Christ for his hand in your life, he is already reaching out! I love you all and am so thankful for all the support you give! Thanks for sending emails, prayers, and all the good vibes :) 
I almost forgot! This week! We are shopping today because we have a TWO mission conference! My mtc buddies from Birmingham are coming to London on Friday and we are going to be hearing from President Ballard, Elder Cook, and Elder Holland! 3 apostles! That's like unheard of! I am so excited I could cry! I am so excited for November! Sister Fennegan and I have been working so hard and if all goes well we will have a baptism every weekend this month, perfect timing for thanksgiving:) 
Did you know missionaries get to plan the baptisms?! I had no idea but I am so haply about it! 
Anyways I think that's all, I'm too lazy to keep labeling my pics so just take a wild guess ;) Some from museum last week and others are just throughout the week👍 
also GiGi if you wanna send me pics of the wedding, i wouldn't be mad at all!! 
I Love & miss you all!! 
Scripture thought that's helped me this week that I hope helps you as well:) 
All we have to do is trust the Lord and try our best and he takes care of the rest! Comforting huh!  
2 Nephi 31:20 
Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life.

💗 Sister Fox 

P.s @ mom and dad, i finally bought myself a winter coat. Are you proud of me?! 🤣








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